Have you ever thought about one of your close friends and wondered, 'am I one of those people to them?'
I have before. Very often, actually. There's always that really good friend of mine, possibly even best friend, that I wonder about. Wonder if they actually like me or if they dread every word I speak. It's not like they do anything that makes me think they feel that way about me. They aren't suspicious or anything. I just know myself to be a very.. obnoxious person, and I wonder if that gets to them.
Then there are those moments that make you stop, smile, and think, 'Never mind. I am just as cool to them as they are to me.'
Take my very close friend Kimberly for an example. We are almost always together. I think I might have been frustrated with her once or twice (not counting before 7th grade... we hated each other before then). But every once in a while I think, 'is she just tolerating me?' Not because she is rude or anything. I mean she laughs at my jokes and holds my bag for me when I need it. But, simply put, I can be annoying. I annoy myself sometimes.
Today during choir I had one of those 'never mind' moments. Kimberly and I are in different singing sections in choir, so she walked out of the classroom first to go to the auditorium. This prevented us from walking together. I wasn't thinking about it at all. But when I got to the door, I found Kimberly there waiting for me to come out so we could walk together.
Pretty sure I smiled the whole way to the auditorium after that.
So through that little act, some how, she renewed my belief that she actually does enjoy my company - and that she isn't just tolerating it. And now I feel happy because I personally know for sure that one of my close friends I look up to most actually takes delight in my presence.
Yeah. It was a pretty boss day.
